Title: The Now or Never Moment: Omnibus
Author: Katie Kaleski
Blurb (taken from Goodreads):
By the time she realizes she loves him, he’s already gone.
Shelby and Tanner have been inseparable ever since freshman year when she intervened to save him from a bully’s beating. Fast forward four intense years–Shelby is leaving for college. Without Tanner. Three days before she’s set to move, he hands her a thick envelope with explicit instructions:
In no way shape or form is she to open the envelope until she is perfectly settled in at school. She is not to even think of it until then.
No one has seen Tanner since that moment.
She opens the envelope to find a letter of epic proportions inside that spans their years in high school together. When she reads it out loud to almost her entire dorm, Shelby relives the good and all of the bad, and together they learn details that Tanner held back, the things he never told her. How much he really loves her.
Sometimes, all it takes is walking in someone else’s shoes to realize what you’ve known all along. Sometimes, that realization comes too late.
*this book deals with suicidal ideation, depression, and bullying*
If I could resume this book in just a few words, it would probably be: almost five hundred page long comedic tragedy. Because this book is sad, and because it’s so long, it feels like the sadness will never end… and then you get to the ending, which I personally didn’t expect after the drawn-out dramatic storyline I had just read. This book will make you laugh and it will make you tear up. Tragedies generally end with death, but comedies end with love… I’ll let you guess which one it will be.
Warning: a lot of this book broke my heart. I wouldn’t recommend reading this if you aren’t in a good place emotionally, as it does deal with suicidal ideation, depression, and bullying… as well as unrequited love, PTSD, near-death experiences.
I would recommend to not let the beginning throw you off about the pacing of the book. The first few chapters are unsettling because they are so fast-paced, and there could be so much more context to this story. Then, once it gets into Tanner’s letter, the pacing stabilizes and everything reads smoothly… and then the ending is as quickly paced as the beginning. I think this is a collection of four novellas (one per school year), so perhaps the structure of it made more sense as such.
I’d like to thank Katie Kaleski, as well as Netgalley, for the free copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.